Benjamin Isaiah Black’s “FINALE: Curtain Call”

***This was performed live on April 22, 2015***

This was the last show I performed before I graduated. It’s me doing what I do best, doing what I love to do. It’s poetry, it’s mime, it’s film, it’s theatre, it’s music, it’s entertainment, it’s inspiring, it’s encouraging, it’s uplifting, it’s art, it’s godly. I hope you enjoy it! God bless you, and I love you!

(c) April 2015, B.I.B. Productions

You Are the Music to My Soul

***This was written on May 31, 2015***

You are the music to my soul.
There is no doubt about that.
I feel your melody playing.
I am your harmony saying
Continue your sweet sound.
Let me be your instrument.
Use me as your muse, your inspiration.
I breathe your creation,
Your art from your heart.
You start the beat that sets the foundation to my life.
You add the rhythm that gives me the energy to move.
A day doesn’t pass without me hearing you.
Don’t change one note from your composition.
I feed on it.
I yearn for it.
I learn from it
How to live.
You give
Me
Music for my soul.
You keep me from being alone.
I need your tune to keep me alive.
May it never change,
Never be rearranged.
It is my life.
You are my life.
You are the music to my soul.

(c) May 2015, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

Journal Entry: Graduation

***This was written on May 23, 2015***

Dear Journal,
How’s it going? How have you been? I know this is two weeks too late, but I’ve graduated! As of Saturday, May 9, 2015, I’ve become a graduate of Ashland University! I’ve earned my Bachelors of Arts degree in General Theatre! It is fantastic! I am a college graduate! This is what I worked for the past 5 years toward! This is one of the major milestones of life I’ve been looking forward to!…And I’m going to miss Ashland so much. I miss it now. Over the past 2 weeks, I’ve had a number of dreams about Ashland. That’s been my home for the past 5 years, and now I’m done. I won’t be returning again in August. I can’t believe it. I had to say good-bye to the people, the city, the campus, the buildings, and my room…OK, so I’m a sentimental. But, can you blame me? I’ve spent almost a fifth of my life at Ashland! Whether time was spent in the theatres, the radio station, at a BSU/DOC event, in the classroom, in my room, or wherever, I loved my time at Ashland!
In fact, what all have I done at Ashland? Hmm…Let’s see if I can remember:
Freshman Year: Move onto campus (08/20/2010)
University Choir (08/2010 – 05/2011)
Scene Shop scholarship hours (08/2010 – 04/2011)
Member of BSU (Black Student Union) (09/2011)
Lip Sync Contest (09/2010)
The Bro. B.I.B. Show (09/2010 – 04/2011)
• Creator/Actor/Writer/Producer/Director/Recording Engineer/Editor/Sound Designer
Of Mice and Men, “Crooks” (10/15/2010 – 10/24/2010)
• Irene Ryan Award nomination
Adjusting Focus, “Chris” (11/2010 – 04/2011)
KCACTF (Kennedy Center American College Theatre Festival) (01/2011)
Recital Crew employee (01/2011 – 04/2011)
Surround Sound (01/2011 – 05/2011)
Evening of Celebration 2011 (02/23/2011)
• Actor
BLACK: a one-man show (03/23/2011)
• First original stage play
• Solo show
• Actor/Writer/Producer/Director
Picasso at the Lapin Agile, Running Crew (04/08/2011 – 04/17/2011)
Inducted in APO (Alpha Psi Omega) (04/2011)
Leadership and Recognition Awards: Emerging Leader nomination (04/2011)
WRDL Award: Outstanding Newcomer (04/2011)
University Choir Tour (05/2011)
Sophomore Year: Pathways Leader (08/2011)
88.9 WRDL, Operations’ Director (08/2011 – 03/2012)
BSU, Secretary (08/2011 – 04/2012)
APO, Member (08/2011 – 05/2012)
University Choir (08/2011 – 05/2012)
Scene Shop scholarship hours & employee (08/2011 – 04/2012)
The Bro. B.I.B. Show (09/2011 – 03/2012)
Whistle Down the Wind, “Vicar” (10/28/2011 – 11/05/2011)
Meet Michael Kaeshammar (11/11/2011)
Meet & Interview Take 6 (12/07/2011)
KCACTF (01/2012)
• Irene Ryan Award partner
NIMH’s Last Comedian Standing (01/30/2012)
Evening of Celebration (02/29/2012)
• Actor/Writer/Producer/Director, Black Out
Mr. University (03/07/2012)
• Won
One-Act Experience/Experiment 2012, Running Crew (04/18/2012 – 04/21/2012)
Junior Year: Pathways Leader (08/2012)
BSU, President (08/2012 – 04/2013)
88.9 WRDL, Production Director (08/2012 – 05/2013)
APO, Member (08/2012 – 05/2013)
Scene Shop scholarship hours & employee (08/2012 – 04/2013)
Bus Stop, Sound Designer & Sound Board Operator (09/27/2013 – 10/06/2012)
Retirement Video for Ric Goodwin (01/2013 – 04/2013)
WRDL BHM 2013 (WRDL Black History Month 2013) (02/01/2013 – 02/28/2013)
• Writer/Recording Engineer/Voice Talent/Editor/Producer
Little Shop of Horrors, “Audrey II, Manipulator”/“Wino I” (02/22/2013 – 03/02/2013)
Evening of Celebration 2013 (02/27/2013)
• Writer/Producer/Co-director, Our Journey
My Me: Stage Play (03/06/2013)
• Fourth original stage play
• Second solo show
• Actor/Writer/Producer/Director/Music Arranger
A Life in the Theatre, Sound Designer & Sound Board Operator (04/10/2013 –
04/14/2013)
Theatre Award: Outstanding Performance Award, Little Shop of Horrors (05/2013)
Senior Year I: Theatre Senior Project (05/2013 – 04/30/2014)
• Playwright, The Response
Pathways Leader (08/2013)
APO, Liason (08/2013 – 05/2014)
Production Director (08/2013 – 05/2014)
Member, DOC (Diversity On Campus) (08/2013 – 04/2014)
• Formerly known as Black Student Union
March: 50 (08/28/2013)
• Celebration of the 50th anniversary of the March on Washington
• Creator/Organizer/Student Leader
The Servant of Two Masters, “Florindo Silvio” (11/01/2013 – 11/09/2013)
KCACTF (01/2014)
• Student Directing Institute, A Raisin in the Sun
WRDL BHM 2014, (02/01/2014 – 02/28/2014)
Evening of Celebration 2014 (02/19/2014)
• Actor/Writer/Producer/Director, Thank You
• Plaque of gratitude
One-Acts & New Works 2014 (04/02/2014 – 04/06/2014)
• Tennessee Williams’ Moony’s Kid Don’t Cry, Director
• Jay Kunzi’s That’s What I’m Dreamin’, “Booty Magnet”
• Benjamin Isaiah Black’s The Response, Writer
Leadership and Recognition Awards: Diversity Enhancement Award (04/13/2014)
WRDL Award: Outstanding Senior Award (04/2014)
Theatre Award: Green Room Award (05/2014)
Theatre Award: Outstanding Performance Award, The Response (05/2014)
Senior Year II: Pathways Leader (08/2014)
88.9 WRDL, Production Director (08/2014 – 05/2015)
APO, Member (08/2014 – 12/2014)
Saint Joan, “Robert de Beaudricourt”/“Gilles de Rais (Bluebeard)”/“Bishop Peter
Cauchon” (10/03/2014 – 10/11/2014)
• Irene Ryan Award nomination
Homecoming King (10/11/2014)
In the Event of My Death, Assistant Sound Designer (10/30/2014 – 11/08/2014)
Black Magic (11/15/2014)
KCACTF (01/2015)
APO, Secretary (01/05/2015 – 05/02/2015)
Meet Rev. Dr. C.T. Vivian (01/19/2015)
WRDL BHM 2015 (02/01/2015 – 02/28/2015)
The Wizard of Oz, Assistant Sound Designer (02/13/2015 – 02/21/2015)
Evening of Celebration 2015 (02/25/2015)
• Actor/Writer/Producer/Director, Motown: a Concert Experience
• Certificate of gratitude & Eagle Head
The House of Blue Leaves, “Billy Einhorn” (04/09/2015 – 04/17/2015)
Leadership and Recognition Awards: Diversity Enhancement (04/19/2015)
FINALE: Curtain Call (04/22/2015)
• Eighth original stage play
• Third & final solo show
• Actor/Writer/Producer/Director/Music Arranger/Editor
Theatre Award: Performance Award, Saint Joan (05/02/2015)
Theatre Award: Inaugural Brother BIB Award (05/02/2015)
• Award named after me
• First presentation of this award
Spring Commencement (05/09/2015)
Wow. I mean, wow! It’s been an unbelievably fantastic ride! I remember the day I moved on the campus almost five years ago. As a young freshman, I could not have imagined doing everything I did – or, at least, I wouldn’t have been able to predict doing it all! I’ve produced eight original productions (including my radio show), I’ve written eight original stage productions (including The Response), I’ve performed in a total of fourteen shows at Ashland, I’ve gained a number of awards and honors, I was in a web series, I produced a couple of films, my voice was heard on the radio a countless number of times, I met Take 6, I shook hands with Dr. C.T. Vivian, I created and led an event that celebrated the fiftieth anniversary of the March on Washington for Jobs and Freedom – and it has been phenomenal! Between everyone I met, everything I learned, everywhere I went, and the great and many things I did, I’ve enjoyed my time at Ashland so much!
I often wondered how I’d survive the “real world” after graduation. I was afraid because I didn’t know what was going to come next. While I still don’t know, and I’m still applying to places all over, I’m at peace now. I’m comforted. I realized that this was the same way I felt that very first morning, the day I left for Ashland, nearly five years ago. And look at everything God allowed me to do. If He allowed me to soar at Ashland, I know I have nothing to worry about, so long as I put Him first. With that being said, I look forward to applying the lessons I’ve learned at Ashland and moving on to bigger and better things. My Jesus is SO good! Thank You, Jesus! Praise You, God! HALLELUJAH! BOOYIKA!

Sincerely,

Benjamin Isaiah Black

(c) May 2015, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

I’m About to Graduate

***This was written on January 8, 2015***
***This was filmed and shown at Benjamin Isaiah Black’s FINALE: Curtain Call***

BRO. B.I.B.
I’m about to graduate.
Ain’t it great?
May 9, I’ll wake up no later than 8:00,
I’ll get up and prepare myself to cross the stage.
After 5 long years, it’s finally come to this.
Funny how I knew this day would come, my time at Ashland’s about done.
Yet I can’t believe I’m about to say good-bye to these days of fun –
The events and the atmosphere,
The buildings and the cheer,
The people I’ve met who I love dear,
I love them so.
In a short while, I’ll be saying good-bye to it all,
To this place that’s been a home for 5 years.
I’m about to graduate.
Ain’t it great?
Then why can’t I celebrate
What awaits me?

INNER VOICE #1.
You don’t know?

BRO. B.I.B.
Know what?

INNER VOICE #1.
Know the reasons for your doubts,
What your nervousness and confusion are about.
You know. You know you do.

BRO. B.I.B.
I don’t know what you’re talking about. I haven’t got a clue.

INNER VOICE #1.
Sure you do.
How prepared are you for what’s out there?
You think you’re ready for the real world?
You’ve got no place of your own, no car, no job – you’re broke.
You’re going back home with Mom and Dad? That’s a joke.

BRO. B.I.B.
What’s wrong with that?

INNER VOICE #1.
You plan on living there forever?

BRO. B.I.B.
No.

INNER VOICE #1.
When are you going to get it together?

BRO. B.I.B.
Would you go?

INNER VOICE #1.
You’re never going to be successful, never –

BRO. B.I.B.
Yo!

INNER VOICE #1.
If you don’t start putting work in.

BRO. B.I.B.
What do you want? Why are you here?
Would you clear the crud out and stop drawing near my ear?

INNER VOICE #1.
I want you to hear your inner thoughts and realize your true fears.
That’s why you’re nervous. That’s why you’re not at ease.
Say what you’re feeling. You don’t have to hold it in like a lion that’s been tamed.
Just say what’s on your mind.

BRO. B.I.B.
Fine! I’m afraid!
I’m afraid! I admit it, I’m scare!
I don’t know what the crud to expect out there.
How do I know I’ll be successful?
How do I know I’ll be great?
I don’t know where I’ll be in 5 years – I know nothing about my fate!
What if I’m not talented enough to make it far?
I have no money, not even for clothes or my own car!
I spend time watching YouTube video, letting out laughs,
When that time could have been used perfecting my crafts.
What if opportunity after opportunity slams doors in my face
And I’m left in some dark, neglected, forgotten place?
That’s not me. That’s not who I want to be.
I never imagined that kind of life for myself.
I’d rather stay here in familiar territory.

INNER VOICE #2.
Now, you know that’s not your story.
You’ll already be paying 5 years worth of student loans.
You want to pay more?

BRO. B.I.B.
What if I died here? They can’t get me if I’m dead.

INNER VOICE #2.
They’d come after your family, bruh.

BRO. B.I.B.
Crud.

INNER VOICE #2.
Are you really going to allow fear to paralyze you from experiencing all that God has for you?
Don’t sacrifice what He created you to do.

BRO. B.I.B.
How do I know this dream of mine is true?

INNER VOICE #2.
I thought you knew.
You know God made you with a purpose in mind.
He’s got great plans for you so divine.
Don’t let fear bind you, don’t be blind to the truth.
God has been watching you the whole time.
Your life is proof of that – you wouldn’t be here if He wasn’t on your side.
He is in front you, next to you, and behind,
Covering you from all around.
He’s even with you right now.

BRO. B.I.B.
How am I supposed to believe that?
Look at where I am, who I am, what I am.
Does this look like someone who’s gonna be a great man?

INNER VOICE #2.
Can you lend yourself to God’s plan?
Have faith in Him?
Trust that He knows what He’s doing even when you don’t?
Don’t think that He’ll let you down now, ‘cuz He won’t;
Not after everything else He’s brought you through.
Don’t act like you’re hearing something new.
Five years ago you said a prayer,
And Jesus heard and answered it because He loves you and He cares.
During those years, He’s seen you through great ups and downs,
Each trial and tribulation –
It was Him who made a way out for you in your situations.
Now if Jesus, THAT God who lives in you
And brought you through everything you’ve been through –
If He provided you strength to endure back then,
What makes you think He wouldn’t do it again?
He’s always there for you, especially when it’s hard.
Just believe that He is who He says,
That He’ll do what He says He’ll do.
God’s not a man that would lie.
You know this is true. Now apply.

BRO. B.I.B.
I’m about to graduate.
Ain’t is great?
And now…I can’t wait!
I anticipate to see what God has ahead.
I gravitate to His Will.
There’s nothing to debate.
Father, please help me eliminate my fears and doubts,
Not to hesitate to follow You.
Your power and might are great, so who am I to underestimate You as You go to elevate me?
That fascinates me.
I will follow you down the narrow and straight,
Working hard with all my strength
Remembering You’re not through with me yet, You did not eliminate me.
You don’t hate me.
You strengthen me.
Educate me in You.
You have a great future that awaits me,
And so I thank Thee.
There’s much to celebrate.
A word I must emancipate.
Have you heard? Ain’t it great?
I’m about to graduate!

(c) January 2015, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

Too Bad, So Sad

***This was written on January 4, 2015***
***This was performed in Benjamin Isaiah Black’s FINALE: Curtain Call***

I hear tale you don’t like me.
Too bad, so sad.
You don’t approve of my name, Bro. B.I.B.
Too bad, so sad.
So you don’t like my clothes or my style?
Too bad, so sad.
You take issue with my face and smile?
Too bad, so sad.
Someone told me you don’t like how I walk.
Too bad, so sad.
Let me guess, you’re not fond of how I talk?
Too bad, so sad.
You claim there’s something wrong with the pencils I wear,
Too bad, so sad.
And yet, you continue to gaze and stare.
Too bad, so sad.

I’m sorry, let me break for a minute.
If you’ll be a dear, please lend an ear and hear what I have to say.
I understand you take issue with me.
So, maybe I can be loud sometimes.
I’m not always good at expressing what’s on my mind.
I make it a point to give you the real deal of how I feel about something.
Modern pop music: I had it, and I’m not afraid to debate it.
I can’t stand popular fads, they hurt my brain.
Based on my attire sometimes, you’d swear I’m insane,
And I don’t claim I’m not.
I can’t pretend I don’t know why you don’t like me a whole lot.
I’m not fool, I get it.
It’s cool…And yet that
Doesn’t mean I’m changing who I am for you.
Suck it up. Get over it.
You want me to renounce my identity so you can feel better?
Will it make you feel swell, or
Cool like an evening in the summer weather?
Then forgive me for not allowing your feelings and thoughts toward me to change who I am.
No. I take that back.
I’m sorry I was sorry.
I don’t need your forgiveness to be myself.
I don’t need your permission to be free to be me,
Free like an eagle flying high though the sky with his wings spread wide going as high as he may please
‘Cause he’s free.
Not bound by any limitation
He flies with no hesitation.
Likewise, I will not be bound by you.
It doesn’t matter what you say or do.
I’m here to honor Father God, not be pandered by you,
So shoo…and don’t bother me.

You find it odd that I use “crud” and “heathen” in my speech.
Too bad, so sad.
Or that I may randomly dance as I’m walking in the streets.
Too bad, so sad.
There are many things about me I must improve,
Too bad, so sad.
But my focus is on God, not trying to please you.
Too bad, so sad.

(c) January 2015, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

Journal Entry: New Years Resolution 2015

***This was written on January 2, 2015***

Dear Journal,
Happy New Year! I’m excited about 2015. Next Wednesday, after ACTF, I begin my final semester at Ashland University! It’s been a long ride, but it’s been a fantastic one! I’d be lying if I said I weren’t a little nervous, but I’m excited to see what God has for me!
With a new year comes resolutions. Every year I pray, “God, may I be better this time next year than I am now.” Why in the world did it take me this long to realize how bland and vague that is? I don’t know, but let me fix that now. I’m going to list the top 3 things I want to work on this year:
• Work smart. I’ve been known for working hard: doing a million things at once, keeping late hours, the whole nine yards. But I don’t always work smart. I shouldn’t always sacrifice sleep and food to get work done. I need to focus and follow through with the goals I set for myself. This year, I will work smart.
• Develop my talent. The best moments my talents had a chance to grow was in class or when I was doing something with them: when I was in a play, or when I was writing. I want to continue getting better. I cannot and will not sit on the talents God has given me. This year, I will continue to develop my talent.
• Deepen my relationship with Jesus. Often times I find myself having so much fun or working so hard that I forget about Jesus’ love and care. After all that Jesus has done for me, how dare I forget about His goodness? I want to be closer to Him. I need to dive deeper into His Word, pray more, and start fasting again. Jesus us the most important person in the world to me, and I will honor Him by putting Him first. This year, I will deepen my relationship with Jesus.
So there it is! These are my resolutions for the year of 2015! I can’t wait to see what all God has in store for me! Happy New Year!

(c) January 2015, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

A Dead Life

***This was written on October 7, 2014***

The air in my lungs is gone
My heart no longer beats
The feeling in my body is absent
I am cold as ice
I have no soul
No control over the darkness that surrounds me
This deadly plague that bounds me
I am condemned to a prison with no air
No warmth, no care
No windows or light that I may see at night
I am bound, yet there are no walls
I am caged, but there aren’t any bars
I lower my head and accept the truth:
I am dead
That is what I am without You
What is life if You are not here?
What is its worth if You’re not near?
Every morning I open my door to be greeted by depression
Recession
Agression
And I must make the confession that I want to die
Why?
Because living without You is like waking up to a morning where the sun forgot to rise,
Walking through the forest, and the birds deny you their chirping and singing
Not being able to hear the most pleasant chimes ringing
Playing a song with no music, but its lyrics so abusive
Going through an entire year in which the seasons never change,
It’s always the same
And it drains the life from me to live without You

(c) October 2014, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

Hell

***This was written on September 23, 2014***

Dare you justly want to go
To the home far deep below
Of those who run, denounce, or shun
That! which yearns their dear hearts so?

Your skin will crawl and melt and peel.
The demons will pierce you through your heel.
They’ll stab and rape your flesh to scrapes.
They beat whatever else you may feel.

The chorus of billions shrieking terrorous cries,
The pit of the fallen to their demise,
Blood becomes wine for some to dine,
For they love the horrified fear in your eyes.

If pure wickedness lies in your core,
You set fire to your flesh like never before,
It is hate you love, you despise what’s Above,
You’ll receive all of this and much, much more.

(c) September 2014, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

When Was the Last Time?

***This was written on July 21, 2014***

Jesus, when was the last time I stopped to say “Thank You?”
When did I last show gratitude for the many things You do?
May I never get too busy to thank You for shining You Light
You allowed me to see this day when I shouldn’t have made it through the night
I’m not strong enough to make it on my own
When I thought I didn’t have a friend, You showed me I’m not alone
Yes, God. I just wanted to say thank You.

Jesus, when was the last I stopped to praise You?
Throughout all the situations I faced, You always brought me through.
When was the last time I acknowledged Your goodness toward me?
You gave me feet to walk, hands to touch, ears to hear, and eyes to see.
You’ve looked out for me more than I’ve looked out for myself.
Even when I don’t realize it, You’re there surrounding me with Your care.
Once I fell You gave me Your Hand, and I had the strength to stand.
So when I lift my hands and a smile spreads throughout my face,
Know that I’m praising You for Your incredible, amazing Grace!
Oh, yes. I will stop to praise You!

Jesus, when was the last time I stopped to say “I love You?”
“You’re first in my life, there is no one above You?”
I love You because You first loved me.
There’s no debating after seeing Your sacrifice on Calvary.
You, the Son of God, the Son of Man,
Hung on a tree with thorns in Your head and nails in Your Hands;
Blood pouring down Your Face, pain running through Your body.
You went through all of this just for me?
A sinner who isn’t worth 2 cents?
A worm?
A slimball?
A wretch?
For me?
Knowing that it should have been me on that cross,
Pierced in both sides, having a worthless life to be lost –
You knew I should have been cast down into Hell with my soul burning in sufferage,
And yet You died in my place?
There was nothing I did to deserve Your Grace!
You shouldn’t have done it, didn’t have to do it,
BUT YOU DID!!!
I love You, Jesus!
If I didn’t say it before, I’ll say it now: I love You!

HALLELUJAH! BOOYIKA!

(c) July 2014, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

Let’s Go

***This was written on July 19, 2014***
***This will be performed in Benjamin Isaiah Black’s FINALE: Curtain Call***

BRO. B.I.B.
Ever have that moment where everything feels all wrong?
You wake up one morning and your smile is gone?
At first you can’t explain it. “What’s going on here?”
But after delving inside, it becomes all too clear.

I can’t turn on anyone else if the problem’s in me.
Who can I blame if I’m the only one in this room, so empty?
I can’t take this anymore, this…discomfort in the air.
I’m afraid I can’t…I’m afraid I…I’m afraid. I’m scared.

In just a short while, I’ll be graduating.
That’s joyous, but I’m in no mood for celebrating.
How can I when I still have a whole life to look forward to?
Now comes the real responsibilities and all the work I have to do.

This is what I’ve been working hard for;
I’ve studied and labored so I can do and have more,
So I can showcase my talents for thousands – millions to see,
So I can praise God with the gifts that He has given me.

But…what if I can’t do it? What if I can’t succeed?
I don’t think people understand that I have a need
And a passion and desire to perform and create.
This is what God wanted me to do, this is why I was made.

If I’m not able to do it, how will I live?
What will I leave the world if I have nothing to give?
Creating and performing – that’s my life! That’s my dream!
I’ll die if I can’t do either one. What will life mean?

LEFT BRO. B.I.B.
Maybe I’m not good enough to accomplish such a feat.
I’m not smart or talented enough. I’m not strong enough, I’m weak.
Something will fail. Something will go awry.
I won’t be able to live with myself. I’m going to die.

BRO. B.I.B.
I’m not weak.
LEFT BRO. B.I.B.
Oh, really? What do you call it, then,
When you vow not to do something, but you do it again?
Or when you say you’ll be better at something, but you don’t put in enough effort?
I prefer the easy way out. I’m afraid to work.

I know I have to trust God, but this seems like a crutch,
Like God will always protect me, so I don’t have to work much.
And how do I know what God wants me to do? I can never hear His Voice.
How will I know whether or not I’m making the right choice?

But, really, how do I know whether or not I’ll be anything great?
Nothing about my current situation says that. Just the thought gives me a headache.
I’m not talented or good enough to stand out.
Better realize it now rather than try, fail, and pout.

What if no one likes me or what I have to bring?
What is no one knows my name, or my art becomes boring?
Is this the maximum of my potential for this life I’m in?
Thus us the life I’ll lead forever? This is all there is?

BRO. B.I.B.
Whenever I’d imagine what my future holds
I thought I’d be living large and happy, not sitting here alone
And scared like a coward, wondering what’s ahead.
How the crud am I supposed to smile when I have so much to dread?

RIGHT BRO. B.I.B.
I’m not a coward. Don’t call me out my name.
I don’t need pity or sympathy, and don’t give me any shame.
This is just a common phase for people – feeling nervous, low, and poor.
These aren’t feelings no one else has ever felt before.

BRO. B.I.B.
But what if it’s not a phase? I don’t know what it’s really like out there!
RIGHT BRO. B.I.B.
I know one thing: God is with me, giving me His Love and care.
Why should I fear life’s curveballs and fast balls and twists, turns, and twirls
When “greater is He who is in me than he who is in the world?”

I’ve got all the Strength and Power I need to make it through the rough times.
BRO. B.I.B.
How can I begin to think I’m strong enough?
LEFT BRO. B.I.B.
That statement carried a lot of pride.
RIGHT BRO. B.I.B.
If I were talking up my own might, that’d be true;
But you do know I’m not talking about my own strength, don’t you?

Don’t forget about Jesus, what He does or who He is.
If the same God who got up from the grave rests in my heart and lives,
Who’s to say what I can or can’t do, what I can or can’t be?
It doesn’t matter who stands in my way, not even me.

BRO. B.I.B.
That’s not true. I could stand in my own way
And keep myself from hearing anything God has to say,
Or stop myself from growing with thoughts of doubt.
RIGHT BRO. B.I.B.
That’s right! Which is why that negative mentality has got to go out.

Jesus will bless you greatly – He doesn’t have any limitations.
He’ll take you farther than you ever thought possible, and bring you through hellish situations.
But you have to know and believe for no one else but you
What God is able to do.

BRO. B.I.B.
Well, He didn’t create me because He had nothing better to do.
He has a purpose for my life.
RIGHT BRO. B.I.B.
You know that to be true.
BRO. B.I.B.
I know it’s safe in here. Out there, it’s unpredictable and scary.
But “if God is for me, who can be against me?”

Jesus, I may not know what’s going to happen next,
But You carried me when I was going through before, and You’ll bring me through the rest.
May I never stray away from You, but may I constantly grow.
I’m ready for what You have for me. Let’s go.

(c) July 2014, B.I.B. Productions
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