I’m About to Graduate

***This was written on January 8, 2015***
***This was filmed and shown at Benjamin Isaiah Black’s FINALE: Curtain Call***

BRO. B.I.B.
I’m about to graduate.
Ain’t it great?
May 9, I’ll wake up no later than 8:00,
I’ll get up and prepare myself to cross the stage.
After 5 long years, it’s finally come to this.
Funny how I knew this day would come, my time at Ashland’s about done.
Yet I can’t believe I’m about to say good-bye to these days of fun –
The events and the atmosphere,
The buildings and the cheer,
The people I’ve met who I love dear,
I love them so.
In a short while, I’ll be saying good-bye to it all,
To this place that’s been a home for 5 years.
I’m about to graduate.
Ain’t it great?
Then why can’t I celebrate
What awaits me?

INNER VOICE #1.
You don’t know?

BRO. B.I.B.
Know what?

INNER VOICE #1.
Know the reasons for your doubts,
What your nervousness and confusion are about.
You know. You know you do.

BRO. B.I.B.
I don’t know what you’re talking about. I haven’t got a clue.

INNER VOICE #1.
Sure you do.
How prepared are you for what’s out there?
You think you’re ready for the real world?
You’ve got no place of your own, no car, no job – you’re broke.
You’re going back home with Mom and Dad? That’s a joke.

BRO. B.I.B.
What’s wrong with that?

INNER VOICE #1.
You plan on living there forever?

BRO. B.I.B.
No.

INNER VOICE #1.
When are you going to get it together?

BRO. B.I.B.
Would you go?

INNER VOICE #1.
You’re never going to be successful, never –

BRO. B.I.B.
Yo!

INNER VOICE #1.
If you don’t start putting work in.

BRO. B.I.B.
What do you want? Why are you here?
Would you clear the crud out and stop drawing near my ear?

INNER VOICE #1.
I want you to hear your inner thoughts and realize your true fears.
That’s why you’re nervous. That’s why you’re not at ease.
Say what you’re feeling. You don’t have to hold it in like a lion that’s been tamed.
Just say what’s on your mind.

BRO. B.I.B.
Fine! I’m afraid!
I’m afraid! I admit it, I’m scare!
I don’t know what the crud to expect out there.
How do I know I’ll be successful?
How do I know I’ll be great?
I don’t know where I’ll be in 5 years – I know nothing about my fate!
What if I’m not talented enough to make it far?
I have no money, not even for clothes or my own car!
I spend time watching YouTube video, letting out laughs,
When that time could have been used perfecting my crafts.
What if opportunity after opportunity slams doors in my face
And I’m left in some dark, neglected, forgotten place?
That’s not me. That’s not who I want to be.
I never imagined that kind of life for myself.
I’d rather stay here in familiar territory.

INNER VOICE #2.
Now, you know that’s not your story.
You’ll already be paying 5 years worth of student loans.
You want to pay more?

BRO. B.I.B.
What if I died here? They can’t get me if I’m dead.

INNER VOICE #2.
They’d come after your family, bruh.

BRO. B.I.B.
Crud.

INNER VOICE #2.
Are you really going to allow fear to paralyze you from experiencing all that God has for you?
Don’t sacrifice what He created you to do.

BRO. B.I.B.
How do I know this dream of mine is true?

INNER VOICE #2.
I thought you knew.
You know God made you with a purpose in mind.
He’s got great plans for you so divine.
Don’t let fear bind you, don’t be blind to the truth.
God has been watching you the whole time.
Your life is proof of that – you wouldn’t be here if He wasn’t on your side.
He is in front you, next to you, and behind,
Covering you from all around.
He’s even with you right now.

BRO. B.I.B.
How am I supposed to believe that?
Look at where I am, who I am, what I am.
Does this look like someone who’s gonna be a great man?

INNER VOICE #2.
Can you lend yourself to God’s plan?
Have faith in Him?
Trust that He knows what He’s doing even when you don’t?
Don’t think that He’ll let you down now, ‘cuz He won’t;
Not after everything else He’s brought you through.
Don’t act like you’re hearing something new.
Five years ago you said a prayer,
And Jesus heard and answered it because He loves you and He cares.
During those years, He’s seen you through great ups and downs,
Each trial and tribulation –
It was Him who made a way out for you in your situations.
Now if Jesus, THAT God who lives in you
And brought you through everything you’ve been through –
If He provided you strength to endure back then,
What makes you think He wouldn’t do it again?
He’s always there for you, especially when it’s hard.
Just believe that He is who He says,
That He’ll do what He says He’ll do.
God’s not a man that would lie.
You know this is true. Now apply.

BRO. B.I.B.
I’m about to graduate.
Ain’t is great?
And now…I can’t wait!
I anticipate to see what God has ahead.
I gravitate to His Will.
There’s nothing to debate.
Father, please help me eliminate my fears and doubts,
Not to hesitate to follow You.
Your power and might are great, so who am I to underestimate You as You go to elevate me?
That fascinates me.
I will follow you down the narrow and straight,
Working hard with all my strength
Remembering You’re not through with me yet, You did not eliminate me.
You don’t hate me.
You strengthen me.
Educate me in You.
You have a great future that awaits me,
And so I thank Thee.
There’s much to celebrate.
A word I must emancipate.
Have you heard? Ain’t it great?
I’m about to graduate!

(c) January 2015, B.I.B. Productions
(P) BOOYIKA!, Inc.

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